I’ve been trying to write this for like a week now and man it’s been hard. I wanted to just share what has been on my mind recently. My struggles and the things I’m actively learning through those struggles.
So here we go…
Discontentment, worry, anxiousness, fear.
If you could take a peek inside my brain for the past couple weeks you’d see a lot of those four things.
But through being overwhelmed with all of these feelings, I’ve learned a lot. And though I battle through all of these feelings on a daily basis, God is faithful.
I want to take some time to talk about discontentment.
I think this is definitely one of the bigger struggles I’ve been facing.
We live in a world where things have become so easy. You do and/or get anything with the touch of a button. And when something becomes inconvenient, it becomes a problem.
Life is inconvenient sometimes.
That little sentence couldn’t be more relevant to my life right now. I’ve had dreams and aspirations in life, and I still do. But they change as I get older. I have several dreams and aspirations and I’ve realized that my problem is that I want them all right now. And I’ve been getting frustrated because I can’t have them all right now.
It makes me sound like a little toddler whining doesn’t it?
I had a dream to travel and do mission work. And in a little over a month I’ll be going to Australia and then to several other countries to pursue that dream(sounds AHH-MAZING right?). But, this trip has now become inconvenient in my mind because I’m having to say “see ya later” to my family, boyfriend, and friends for 5 1/2 months. And that is pretty inconvenient. (But serving God is not suppose to be convenient)
I would like to be getting engaged, married, and having kids but that’s just not where I am right now. I’d like to be going to school but again, not yet. I’d like for my relationship with my boyfriend to not be long distance but yet again, I gotta wait. I’d like to have my own successful flower shop, but you guessed it, not yet.
I’ve realized that this generation is so unsatisfied with everything. As soon as you get what you want, it’s not enough. It feels like there is always something better that is unreachable. And then once you reach that unreachable thing, there’s something else.
The point I’m trying to get across is that yes, it’s good to have dreams and aspirations but you can’t dwell in the future. Live in the present. Enjoy where you are. Don’t stop fighting for your dreams but don’t try to live them prematurely.
Patience really is something to be admired in a person. Because it is HARD.
There’s a reason love isn’t sold at a 7-11. Or..any other store for that matter.
Love isn’t convenient.
Love is hard. Love is something you have to work for and fight for. If love were easy, it wouldn’t be worth it.
When you work hard to obtain and maintain something, you automatically give that thing a much higher value.
I feel like this generation has lost sight of the “fight for love”. There are so many ways to find what is considered love in this weird world. All you have to do is open your phone, hit a button or two and it’s as easy as swiping left or right to find someone. You maybe hook up once, a couple times if you really like the person and then call it love.
THAT’S NOT LOVE.
And don’t get me wrong, if you really do find real, true love on a dating website or app, that’s amazing and I’m so happy for you.
But finding love isn’t just it. You don’t just find it and carry on.
It’s kinda like a seed. You plant the seed, but then you can’t just leave it there. You have to water it, give it the right sunlight, and the proper nutrients. If a seed is not maintained, it won’t grow.
If love is not maintained, it won’t grow.
And there are so many things that go into maintaining love.
When it comes to being in a relationship, going on dates and seeing each other is important. But it’s so much more than that. It’s the little things that really make it count. From asking each other how their day was, to little notes and letters sent to each other.
And you do have to be intentional about it. It’s so easy to get swept away in life’s craziness and forget the little things.
Love isn’t as easy as the movies make it out to be. Don’t let that fool you.
Love is fun and exciting, but it’s something you have to actively choose everyday.
The only way to make it through any of these struggles is by trusting in the ultimate giver of peace. The only one who knows what our journeys will hold. The one who formed and fashioned every part of our beings. Our creator.
I have to daily remind myself to cast all my cares and worries on Him. It is so so easy to carry your burdens and let them pile up and become overwhelming. We think we can handle our struggles, and we can but we don’t have to and that’s the best part. God has given us an escape from all of our worries.
“And do not seek what you should eat or what you should drink, nor have an anxious mind. For all these things the nations of the world seek after, and your Father knows that you need these things. But seek the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added to you.”
Seek the kingdom of God and all of these things shall be added to you.
Focus on Him. If you just keep your eyes on Him, He takes care of the rest. He knows what you need and is so so faithful to provide.
Rest in His promises. He’s gotcha covered.
Peace and love,